skipped yesterday. nothing really happened, and i’ve decided that’s a valid reason not to post. today though, today had some things in it.
a month in pixels
mostly down pour rain all of late last night into this afternoon. then humid, gross. that said, it was an entirely indoors type day.
had my therapy appointment at noon, and told my therapist i’ve been logging every single day in Life In Pixels which is the app she briefly mentioned, where the whole ask is that you rate how you felt once a day, that’s it. when i showed her, she asked how long it’s been since i started doing it, so we checked. it’s almost been a full month! unbroken 🦾 so i’ll touch base with that from time to time as it grows. maybe it’ll wind up painting something pretty cool in due time, who knows? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
a fuck ton has happened in the last few weeks. the last few months. shit, this whole calendar year, honestly! a whole load of growth in directions that have made me this happy, and happy for the first time in a long, long time. and i want to be clear about what that sentence is sitting on top of, because for a while there — for too, too long — it was a very thick, weighty fog of gloomy misery. i had genuinely given up on believing i would ever find happiness again. not in a dramatic way. in a quiet, settled, well-that’s-just-the-weather-now kind of way. i admittedly had come to a point during the decade stretch of it where i flat out had accepted that that was how life would be forever, never better again…
and yet. here i am. eight months later, after some ups and downs, but mostly after a lot — a LOT — of compound progress, all of it the result of a bag full of tiny wins.
that’s been the whole mentality of this year, and i’m glad i gave it the room to prove itself out. like i said a month or so back:
“revolutions happen from small battles won.”
that sentiment has never been more tried and true.
on a much smaller scale it shows up as a handful of daily nothings. a grounding check-in with my OCD.app. a guided meditation. the physical stuff — a first-thing-in-the-morning stretching routine, very light workouts, a handful of walks spread throughout the course of a day. all of it logged in a physical book, in pencil, checked off as i go. ✔️
i was flipping through that book last night and it was genuinely incredible to see all of it laid out. today i could still feel it resonating.
another build, and a note covering my ass
finished another fCC build, this one with full HTML notes. also added a note to the top paragraph of guerz.lol/projects explaining what the page is actually for — my own educational purposes, first and foremost.
partly that’s so anyone landing there knows what they’re looking at. partly it’s me trying to legally cover my ass, because you never know these days.
boxes
otherwise: CSS. more time with the standard box model, the alternative box model, and pretty much everything boxes in general. little boxes on the hillside. little boxes all the same.
going to spend the rest of tonight in there too. and i will continue to do so, becoming as familiar with CSS and HTML until the ground under me stops feeling so shaky. gotta keep the goal in frame: the freeCodeCamp Responsive Web Design v9 Certification Exam, plus Full Sail.
full sail; full send
completely spaced on calling them today. ugh.
i wanted to and need to ask them two things: what their math assessment actually entails — like which specific topics. and when admissions open for the October 26th start, because at this point they have literally everything they need from me except the application itself.
they even have my community college transcript from 2005–2007, which i was happily surprised about — a few credits are going to transfer. and now that i’m typing it out, i think they said those were math credits. which makes me wonder whether that lets me skip the assessment entirely. hmmm. writing a note-to-self and slapping it dead center on my monitor as we speak.
soooo yeah. i know. to some, to most, this whole post probably read as af not much has happened today. but to me, it felt that way, and i’m glad it did. after this, besides studying more, i’m thinking of working on some stream assets and stream setups
current mood: 🫨 surprised by my own paper trail
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