so i know i said in the last post i was getting back into the swing off things. and as it wasn’t entirely false, it seems as though that more accurately that it’s been more at a pace of “slowly but surely”. for the past week and a half, for whatever reasons, i just fell out of rhythm with everything and went dark. idk why it happened, but it did happen. and that’s okay; i’m okay with it, and that’s important. today, i woke up with a decent amount of energy, enough so to bounce back, and i’m pretty fucking happy it panned out that way.
it was a late start to the day, waking up fairly late into the morning, closer to noon than i would’ve liked, but that’s just how i’ve been for the past few weeks. i’m hesitant to say that i was depressed simply because i for one know damn well what depressed looks and feels like, and this just wasn’t depressed; i believe “unmotivated” would be more accurate or a characterization.
upcoming things to look forward to
i say “unmotivated” because ever since i got approved for Spravato (esketamine) treatment as of this past Wednesday and scheduling appointments this upcoming every Monday and Wednesday at 8:30am (meaning a 7:30am medical transportation pickup), it has somewhat revitalized a reason for me to wake up in the morning, a reason that has pretty much been absent after finishing my TMS treatment which was 36 consecutive weekdays.
i’m also pretty fucking excited and look forward to beginning Spravato treatment because the whole setup sounds cozy as fuck. i was told to bring a comfy blanket and suggested to bring some headphones with some non-lyrical music. the latter being something i have an endless supply of since being a DJ for the last umpteenth years of my life. i can’t wait for this treatment to work wonders on me and my life.
tomorrow, i have a virtual tour of Full Sail University, which is another thing i’m excited about. not just the virtual tour itself, but the whole fact of returning to school to (hopefully) leave with a degree this time. i think this time of going to school is actually going to differ than previous attempts because this time i’m going out of choice and my own volition instead of out of familial or societal expectations.
how my day played out and what all i accomplished
got some necessary laundry done; my comfy blanket being the most important which i’m bringing to my medicinal k-hole appointments.
i’ve also clocked in over 14,000 steps and counting as i write this. eased back into a light workout routine which felt like a bitch at first, but i’m glad i’m doing it; it’s not supposed to be a cake walk, at least not if you want it to matter, you know?
i put in some more study time into freeCodeCamp – Responsive Web Design v9 by way of writing review notes on giant index cards and slapping them on the wall in front of my desk so that i’m living with the material day-to-day. i decided to put my fCC Build Archive on hold just for the time being until my index cards catch up to where i left off (CSS Pseudo Elements & Pseudo Classes). this way i’ll have a bit of knowledge base to back up what i’m building and reviewing.
new mindset(s) here at blogguerz
please excuse anything that may appear dysfunctional when visiting this page. i’ve decided on soon hitting the reset button on the theme, and applying all that i’ve learned about WordPress and WP Editor since i applied it. i want to make Categories and Tags more of a manageable and navigable aspect. i’m thinking that i’ll likely add a column on the righthand side of the homepage containing Categories, Tags, & Calendar/Dates. that said, i’m going to do my best to be more conservative with my category labeling and tagging, and not stick a bajillion on them willy nilly. we’ll see how that all plays out.
winding down for the night
soooo yeah, there’s all what’s been going on in my side of the universe. i’m on the fence about streaming again until i can afford another dj controller. i just don’t know if a “study & chill” stream is anything anyone would be interested in tuning into, especially during the summer. if that does so happen to be something you’d be interested in, lemme know, because i’m not completely shooting it down for good.
current mood: 😮💨 wiped
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